It’s 4 am and apparently, it’s my optimal writing time. My only writing time.

I can’t sleep and when I can’t sleep, I sometimes find myself writing. And here I am.

The last few months, among the busyness of travel for work, I’ve become more and more aware of the fact that apart from work, I don’t really “do” anything. I don’t really have a purpose outside of working hard at a job and company I love. I spend my weekends either reading on my couch or hanging out, but nothing that I’m working toward, no major goals, no motivation, and few friends. This, of course, has been of my own choosing. I’ve enjoyed much of this time and have orchestrated such a time to just be. Yet, now, the time has come to start something, get clear on some goals, and live with more purpose.

But what would that be?

I tend to have a 2-2.5 year attention span on things where I devote and dedicate my time and energy on a sole task or purpose. And then I roughly burn out on it and I’m back to trying something new. My previous stints have included:

• Running
• Writing/blogging daily
• Photography
• Toastmasters
• Being a stay-at-home mom
• College

Though I still do many of these things (well, I’m not a stay-at-home mom anymore, but I’m close and I’m definitely NOT in college anymore), they no longer consume me. I’m not passionate about them and it’s doubtful that I ever will be again. Though I still enjoy them and I believe I always will, it seems that the nature of the beast is that these hobbies/activities/interests have run their course.

So, what’s next? Ballroom dancing? No. Gardening? Negative. Cooking? Shoot me now. A quick Google search has also come up empty.

All I know is that sitting in sweatpants at home and doing nothing has been great and very much needed, but it’s time for a change. It’s almost the new year so in the next few weeks, it’s time to set some new goals and maybe pick up a new skill or two.

What are your goals for 2019?