I’d be lying if I said that as I look back on my life thus far that I was glad to have been through all the struggles, experiences, and well, crap, on this journey. I’d love to have woken up this morning next to my soulmate, snuggled a bit before getting the Kidlet up for breakfast–a healthy, vegetarian, gluten-free, low carb, delicious meal prepared by my personal chef, of course, and spent the day doing school, not running around like crazy and ending the day kissing my daughter, my dog and the love of my life good night. It would be nice to look in the mirror every morning and not focus on my insecurities and move through the day unencumbered by emotional baggage and doubts.
I’d be lying if I said that as a little girl, I dreamed my life would be where it is today. When I played house with my friends, (I was always the “mom” since I was the bossiest and everyone did what I told them to do), I never pictured life as a single mom trying to navigate the mess and ridiculousness of the dating world.
Yet, today as I answer another email from someone telling me that what I shared on my blog has helped them in some way in their own situation, I am glad that I can use my experiences to help someone else. I know I’ve said it before here but it’s true. Thank you for those that have taken the time to read, relate, and cheer me on. Every like on Facebook, comment, email, text, and phone call makes it just a bit better for me to know that in my long journey, I am helping people. I may not be living the life I dreamed of in the past, but I am still living the dream. Thanks for being a part of it.
NYC Update: Yes. I am still in NY and yes, we are in the middle of Hurricane Sandy. We are safe in our hotel in Upper Manhattan and will be flying home (fingers crossed) on Wednesday night 🙂